Iain Lee reveals sexual abuse has 'messed up his relationships with older men to this day'

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  • The 44-year-old was sexually abused by a Scout leader at the age of 8
  • Iain first broke his silence in Channel 5 documentary, Me and My Mental Health 
  • Iain believes the assault triggered his depression and suicidal thoughts
  • He has now revealed the ordeal 'messed up his relationships with older men' 

Iain Lee has revealed the sexual abuse he suffered at the age of 8 ruined his relationships with older men throughout his life.

The talkRADIO host, 44, first spoke about the ordeal - which saw him assaulted by a Scout leader - in Channel 5 documentary Me and My Mental Health, and expressed his belief that it triggered his depression. 

Taking to Twitter on Wednesday, the star went on to confess the incident made him feel 'ashamed, guilty and afraid', and 'messed up' his future connections to authoritative male figures. 

'Messed up': Iain Lee has revealed the sexual abuse he suffered at the age of 8 ruined his relationships with older men throughout his life (pictured in February 2018) 

'Messed up': Iain Lee has revealed the sexual abuse he suffered at the age of 8 ruined his relationships with older men throughout his life (pictured in February 2018) 

He wrote to his 98,000 followers: 'What happened to me as a kid didn't last long at all and I wasn't raped. In fact, what happened was very low key compared to many many others. 

'Part of me is terrified that when people find out the extent of what happened I will somehow be 'in trouble' or called out for exaggerating or trying to profit or making something out of nothing.'

However, recalling the devastating impact the event had on his life, he said: 'All I know is that what happened to me over a very short time caused me to feel ashamed, guilty, afraid and unable to tell my parents. 

Horrendous: Taking to Twitter on Wednesday, the star confessed the incident made him feel 'ashamed, guilty and afraid', and 'messed up' his future connections to male figures

Horrendous: Taking to Twitter on Wednesday, the star confessed the incident made him feel 'ashamed, guilty and afraid', and 'messed up' his future connections to male figures

'I was 8. It's messed up my relationships to this day with older men and men in authority.'

Assuring he will only ever be honest with his followers, he continued: 'I've just been replying to a letter from the Scouts and its made me feel very, very nervous. Feel sick actually.

'But seeing this story be magnified and turned into 'my hell' 'torture' and all that s*** really doesn't help me or anyone.'

Staying positive: He wrapped up his emotional post in his usual style, in a bid to lighten the mood

Staying positive: He wrapped up his emotional post in his usual style, in a bid to lighten the mood

Opening up: Iain revealed he was sexually abused as a child by a Scout leader earlier this week, and said he believes it was the trigger to his depression and suicidal thoughts

Opening up: Iain revealed he was sexually abused as a child by a Scout leader earlier this week, and said he believes it was the trigger to his depression and suicidal thoughts

He wrapped up his emotional post by writing: 'PS and now I feel shit and I'm crying so I'm gonna watch Evil Genius to cheer me up.'

Iain revealed he was sexually abused as a child by a Scout leader earlier this week, and said he believes it was the trigger to his depression and suicidal thoughts. 

Appearing on the documentary, which airs on Thursday, Iain explained that his abuse has 'weighed' on him for 35 years.

Tough: Iain explained that his abuse has 'weighed' on him for 35 years, having discussed his mental health battle on I'm A Celebrity (pictured with co-star Shappi Khorsandi)

Tough: Iain explained that his abuse has 'weighed' on him for 35 years, having discussed his mental health battle on I'm A Celebrity (pictured with co-star Shappi Khorsandi)

He said: 'A lot of my depression comes around self-loathing, shame and guilt. How do I say this? There was a bit of sexual abuse that went on as a kid. A scout master and stuff, which kind of weighed heavily on me.

'It is the most horrendous messed-up scenario, it was humiliating and it was shameful, and I remember getting home to my mum and dad and never telling them. I never told them.

He added: 'I think it certainly played a part in my depression, what happened to me at the age of eight. I can see that as the starting point for it. Because up until then the memories I do have are generally quite happy.

'Now I feel embarrassed and ashamed talking about it, it was 35 years ago.'

Honest: The 44-year-old radio personality added that he believes the abuse triggered his depression and even caused him to consider suicide

Honest: The 44-year-old radio personality added that he believes the abuse triggered his depression and even caused him to consider suicide

Having never told his parents about the abuse, the comedian, who stars on the show opposite Trisha Goddard, Adam Deacon and MP Kevan Jones, revealed that staying silent forced him to contemplate taking his own life.

 He began: 'I was out walking the dog and we were in these woods and I just thought, "F***, this is really off the beaten track, I could get a bit of rope. I could hang myself here and no-one would find me for ages."

'And I really allowed myself to go off into this fantasy.' MailOnline have contacted Iain Lee's rep for comment. 

His honest admission comes after he revealed earlier this month that he contemplated suicide on Twitter, after alleged trolling from broadcaster Jon Gaunt.

Social media cleanse: His honest admission comes after he revealed earlier this month that he contemplated suicide on Twitter after alleged trolling from broadcaster Jon Gaunt

Social media cleanse: His honest admission comes after he revealed earlier this month that he contemplated suicide on Twitter after alleged trolling from broadcaster Jon Gaunt

The radio personality lashed out at the journalist in reaction to a series of now-deleted posts, as he claimed his life had been made 'an absolute misery', however rounded out his message by wishing Gaunt's family well.

In his posts, he penned: 'The gall of someone who has threatened me, blackmailed me, mocked my mental health, tried to get me the sack - getting in touch indirectly to ask me to go easy.

'I’m a decent bloke so I will. But sweet Jesus man, have a look at yourself. An apology would be a start.'

He then added in response to a now-deleted message: '@jongaunt of course I’ll do as you ask. Hadn’t crossed that line anyway. You’ve got a nerve though son. After everything you put me through I should tell you exactly where to go.

Hitting back: In his posts, he penned: '@jongaunt of course I’ll do as you ask. Hadn’t crossed that line anyway. You’ve got a nerve though son. After everything you put me through I should tell you exactly where to go' (Jon Gaunt, pictured on This Morning in 2012)

Hitting back: In his posts, he penned: '@jongaunt of course I’ll do as you ask. Hadn’t crossed that line anyway. You’ve got a nerve though son. After everything you put me through I should tell you exactly where to go' (Jon Gaunt, pictured on This Morning in 2012)

'I’m a decent bloke though. I wish, as I’ve always done, you and your family peace.' 

Responding to the message, Jon penned: 'Iain why have you put this in the public domain? You could DM me this is extremely serious, as serious as when you went to court. My family are in real danger please dm me.'

Iain retorted: 'Im not going to mate. You don’t dictate my narrative I’m afraid. I hadn’t crossed that line you asked. I haven’t referred to the specifics. I’m simply saying, you’ve got a f**king nerve after what you put me through. Once again, peace.'

Iain finally added: 'I anticipate another call from Nick asking me to go easy. I have done.never mentioned what you asked me to stop mentioning.

'You made my life an absolute misery. At my lowest ebb of your trolling, I considered, briefly, suicide. So no. I will not DM you. I wish you and yours peace.' 

The reference to court appeared to allude his 2011 battle with a parish councillor, known as 'Mr Good Evening', who bombarded him with hate messages over the phone, email and Twitter.

Samuel Wilkins, an Ofcom worker and village councillor in Whyteleafe, Surrey, was jailed after he subjected the comedian and his producer to a 16-month campaign of abuse and nuisance calls.

Mr Wilkins, then-33, who was also a children's charity trustee, sent Twitter messages calling Lee an 'ugly c**t' and a 'pathetic little p***k' and even made remarks about the DJ's young son.

For confidential support call the Samaritans in the UK on 08457 90 90 90, visit a local Samaritans branch or click here for details. 

For confidential support for adults who suffered any type of abuse in childhood call NAPAC on 0808 801 0331, free from landlines and mobiles, or click here for details 

Hard times: He continued: 'I’m simply saying, you’ve got a f**king nerve after what you put me through. Once again, peace... I anticipate another call from (his agent) Nick asking me to go easy'

Hard times: He continued: 'I’m simply saying, you’ve got a f**king nerve after what you put me through. Once again, peace... I anticipate another call from (his agent) Nick asking me to go easy'

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