Danniella Westbrook was sectioned and tried to kill herself

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They first appeared on Loose Women together back in May, bonding over their shared addiction battle.

And Danniella Westbrook, 44, and Kerry Katona, 37, were joining forces again for another emotional discussion on Wednesday's edition of the ITV chat show, where they touched upon their lowest points, suicide attempts and both being introduced to drugs aged just 14.

Former EastEnders star Danniella gave her most candid interview yet, admitting the last four years have seen her relapsing more seriously than she has previously let on, breaking down as she confessed she was sectioned after repeatedly trying to take her own life just two years ago.

Close bond: Danniella Westbrook, 44, and Kerry Katona, 37, were joining forces again for another emotional discussion on Wednesday's edition of ITV chat show Loose Women

Close bond: Danniella Westbrook, 44, and Kerry Katona, 37, were joining forces again for another emotional discussion on Wednesday's edition of ITV chat show Loose Women

Kicking off the conversation, Kerry said: 'I feel really emotional. To have two notorious druggies and mental health problems, it shows you can overcome it.'

The pair discussed how much their respective addiction battles have affected their children, with Danniella breaking down as she revealed her son Kai, 21, had taken the brunt of her problems.

The troubled star was consoled by pal Kerry as she admitted she had asked to be sectioned two years ago following repeated attempts to take her own life.

She explained: 'Everyone thinks my lowest point was when I got seen with a hole in my nose but my lowest point has been the last four years and not having my daughter in my life, not having certain things in my life, I haven’t dealt with it the right way, I haven’t dealt with it the adult way. I have just used.

'All I’ve done is used. I put myself into hospital two years ago, I said to them, "I have taken copious amounts of coke, every medicine in the house, drunk alcohol; this, that and the other. 

Secret struggle: Former EastEnders star Danniella gave her most candid interview yet, admitting the last four years have seen her relapsing more seriously than she  previously let on

Secret struggle: Former EastEnders star Danniella gave her most candid interview yet, admitting the last four years have seen her relapsing more seriously than she previously let on

Support system: Danniella and Kerry have maintained a close friendship since meeting face-to-face on the show in May  

Support system: Danniella and Kerry have maintained a close friendship since meeting face-to-face on the show in May  

Lowest point: The star broke down as she confessed she was sectioned after repeatedly trying to take her own life just two years ago

Lowest point: The star broke down as she confessed she was sectioned after repeatedly trying to take her own life just two years ago

In conversation: The pair took part in a pre-taped segment as well as joining the panelists in the studios 

In conversation: The pair took part in a pre-taped segment as well as joining the panelists in the studios 

'And I am still waking up - why? Please section me, I am trying to kill myself".

'And they sectioned me. I wanted to die. And I thought what could be the thing that could kill me fast enough that won’t give my kids a lot of shame. 

'And it will be an overdose and it will be because everyone will say, "I told you so because she was a coke head". 

Danniella revealed she hadn't seen her daughter Jodie, 16 - who she shares with her ex Kevin - in years because of her cocaine issues, leaving her eldest son Kai forced to act as her carer. 

'I wrote letters to my kids; I’ve got suicide notes from back then and the reason I said is "so you can have a better life"', she continued. 

'With Kai, he became my carer for the last three years when I’ve been using and I’ve been ill. He has put his life on hold for three years to look after me.' 

She said: 'Everyone thinks my lowest point was when I got seen with a hole in my nose (pictured in 1999) but my lowest point has been the last four years'

She said: 'Everyone thinks my lowest point was when I got seen with a hole in my nose (pictured in 1999) but my lowest point has been the last four years'

Supportive son: The pair discussed how much their respective addiction battles have affected their children, with Danniella breaking down as she revealed her son Kai, 21, had taken the brunt of her problems

Supportive son: The pair discussed how much their respective addiction battles have affected their children, with Danniella breaking down as she revealed her son Kai, 21, had taken the brunt of her problems

Danniella said: 'All I’ve done is used. I put myself into hospital two years ago... I said to them, "I am still waking up - why? Please section me, I am trying to kill myself"'

Danniella said: 'All I’ve done is used. I put myself into hospital two years ago... I said to them, "I am still waking up - why? Please section me, I am trying to kill myself"'

When Kerry asked whether this has put Kai off drugs, Daniella said: 'Kai absolutely hates coke, he hates anything to do with it, he hates cocaine, he hates the whole addiction process, he detests it.

'He detests it because it’s nearly killed his mum. He will cry on the phone sometimes and say, "Do you know what mum, I don’t want to see you die" and there has been times when I have relapsed and I have gone, "I know you don’t want to see me die but I am not helping you."

'It’s hard but I have come through the other side of that and there are still times when I look at him and say, "I am so sorry Kai" and he says, "Will you stop saying sorry".'

Daniella continued: 'I feel so much lighter for being honest about it. I’m not saying I have taken them every day for the last four years but I have struggled for the last years of my life and I am ready to say "please [help me]".'

The pair also spoke about why they started using drugs and also about how they are taking every step to move forward. 

She said of her son Kai, 21: 'He has put his life on hold for three years to look after me'

She said of her son Kai, 21: 'He has put his life on hold for three years to look after me'

No interest: When Kerry asked whether this has put Kai off drugs, Daniella said, 'Kai absolutely hates coke'

No interest: When Kerry asked whether this has put Kai off drugs, Daniella said, 'Kai absolutely hates coke'

She continued: 'He detests it because it’s nearly killed his mum. He will cry on the phone sometimes and say, "Do you know what mum, I don’t want to see you die"

She continued: 'He detests it because it’s nearly killed his mum. He will cry on the phone sometimes and say, "Do you know what mum, I don’t want to see you die"

'We have been in touch almost every day', Kerry revealed, after meeting on the last show.  

The singer has also been in contact with Daniella’s son Kai, offering him advice and support.

Daniella added: 'I can talk to Kerry and she won't judge me.'

The Loose Women discussion cut to Kai, who was showing his support for his mother from the studio audience.  

Kai said: 'I think once you have an understanding and accepting things are the way they are, things become a lot easier.'

Kerry interjected: 'I’ve never met a more clued-up kid in my life.' Kai sadly replied: 'This is how I’ve grown'. 

Fighting back tears: Danniella was struggling not to cry during the tough discussion 

Fighting back tears: Danniella was struggling not to cry during the tough discussion 

On the panel: Coleen Nolan, Chizzy Akudolu, Janet Street-Porter and Stacey Solomon were hosting the ITV programme

On the panel: Coleen Nolan, Chizzy Akudolu, Janet Street-Porter and Stacey Solomon were hosting the ITV programme

Just a phone call away: Kerry has also been in touch with Daniella’s son Kai, offering him advice and support

Just a phone call away: Kerry has also been in touch with Daniella’s son Kai, offering him advice and support

Both Danniella and Kerry explained that they had been introduced to drugs at the tender age of 14.

While Kerry was doing it to 'fit in' with her friends, Danniella's behaviour was a form of escapism after being abused as a child.   

She said: 'I was abused at 7 years old. When you’re 9 and you tell people and they tell you to carry on... Part of my life stopped at that age.'

Mother-of-five Kerry - who raises children Molly, 16, and Lilly-Sue, 15, with first husband Brian McFadden, Heidi, 11, and Max, 10, with second spouse Mark Croft and Dylan-Jorge, four, with ex-husband George Kay - made the candid confession that she got her kids' names tattooed on her wrists in order to prevent herself from slitting her wrists.

The former Atomic Kitten star said: 'Luckily enough, I haven’t put my children through it. I do self-harm and I'd have to be very very selfish to harm over the kids' names inking on wrist.'

'My children have never seen anything but I’ve sat them down and spoken to them.'

Newfound connection: 'We have been in touch almost every day', Kerry revealed, after meeting on the last Loose Women show in May (pictured) 

Newfound connection: 'We have been in touch almost every day', Kerry revealed, after meeting on the last Loose Women show in May (pictured) 

Daily struggles: The pair explained how they cope with their mental health battles, explaining that it's all about keeping busy

Daily struggles: The pair explained how they cope with their mental health battles, explaining that it's all about keeping busy

Troubled teens: Both Danniella and Kerry explained that they had been introduced to drugs at the tender age of 14
Troubled teens: Both Danniella and Kerry explained that they had been introduced to drugs at the tender age of 14

Troubled teens: Both Danniella and Kerry explained that they had been introduced to drugs at the tender age of 14

The pair explained how they cope with their mental health battles, explaining that it's all about keeping busy.

Danniella said: 'I need structure in my day. It’s easy to lay in bed until 3 for a depressive.'

Kerry continued: 'Routine is a massive factor for someone who has addiction. Being on my own after my separation was a massive trigger for me. I’m on my own. I have no childcare so I have to get up.'  

Detailing how she manages her bipolar disorder symptoms, Kerry said: 'I have a wonderful doctor who I see. I’ve got to a stage in my life, I’ve come off my medication and work really closely with my GP.

'I’ve noticed that once I’ve started speaking at events I’m listening to my own advice. It’s sad but it makes me feel not alone.'

Things aren't quite as straightforward for Danniella, despite her trying everything in her power not to relapse.

'I feel really good. I feel a lot better. I like to bury my head usually', she confessed.

'But I’ve had so many slips and relapses in the past three years. Every time I go to a meeting I have to say, hey, I'm back to day one again'. 

Family comes first: Mother-of-five Kerry - who raises children Molly, 16, Lilly-Sue, 15, Heidi, 11, Max, 10, and Dylan-Jorge, four - made the candid confession that she got her kids' names tattooed on her wrists in order to prevent herself from slitting her wrists. She is pictured with her third ex-husband George Kay in May 2017

Family comes first: Mother-of-five Kerry - who raises children Molly, 16, Lilly-Sue, 15, Heidi, 11, Max, 10, and Dylan-Jorge, four - made the candid confession that she got her kids' names tattooed on her wrists in order to prevent herself from slitting her wrists. She is pictured with her third ex-husband George Kay in May 2017

Danniella confessed: 'I’ve had so many slips and relapses in the past three years'

Danniella confessed: 'I’ve had so many slips and relapses in the past three years'

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